Its finally time to share our little secret! But first the story of how we found this little guy, or rather, how he found us.
After losing Baby D we. were. rattled.
We were committed to moving forward and had (sort of) accepted the idea that we would most likely be moving forward on a blind referral.
However. I am a planner. And it was killing me that I didn’t have a child in mind.
It was killing my type A personality, but it was also just a really scary thing.
So I hunted. and hunted and hunted. For a child that I thought might fit into our family.
I can’t help but think that God got a kick out of this.
I was fairly ridiculous. And really, he knew all along who our child would be.
My hunting was getting me nowhere.
Not because there aren’t orphans needing a home. But rather because finding children whose paperwork was prepared for international adoption and who fit within our home studies approved age range was proving tricky.
I came across a few little ones that could have potentially been ours, but it just didn’t feel right.
Not because they weren’t perfectly worthy of love and belonging but because deep down I knew they they were not my children.
So I gave up and out of frustration prayed that God would please just let me know who we were supposed to pursue, because quite frankly I was going to lose my mind.
For sanity preservation I decided not to look at any kids for at least a couple of days to just give my mind and heart a rest.
That lasted about 4 hours.
4 hours later God answered my prayer with, Baby A.
Throughout this process we have become integrated into the Reece’s Rainbow community- moms and dads, who have brought home, or are in the process of bringing home children with special needs from Eastern Europe and around the world, after finding them through the Reece’s Rainbow advocacy site.
I have been so blessed to walk alongside a few moms as they walk down this crazy path at the same time as our family.
One such mom reached out to me during my ‘break’ from searching for a child.
She was planning on traveling soon to bring home two precious little ones with Down Syndrome.
These two children were from two different regions in the country we are adopting from.
Two regions = massive increase in adoption fees.
It had been put on this moms heart that two regions wasn’t going to be feasible and that she should stay within one region and adopt two children from there.
But how could she leave one of her children behind?
You’ve probably figured out where this story is going!
Being familiar with our story, and our lack of commitment to a child, she asked us if we would possibly consider Baby A, as the thought of leaving him behind was understandably breaking her heart.
I had come across Baby A’s profile before but had kept scrolling since I knew he had a committed his family.
We looked at his profile. We looked at his sweet face.
And there was no question.
This was the child that we would pursue.
We learned a little more information about Baby A, spoke to our agency and go the go ahead from them and and committed to this mom that we would do everything in our power to bring this little one home.
It makes us nervous to commit again. The loss of the first child we were pursuing is still fresh in our minds. We have seen first hand that things can change in the blink of an eye.
But there is something about this little guy. He feels like ours.
So we push fear of repeat devastation away and make room in our hearts for him.
Cause, really, he’s kind of perfect.
And by kind of, I mean totally.
Don’t you agree? 🙂
Baby A just turned one year old. He is about 6 weeks younger than Ezra. So. We have gone and become twin parents, because why not!
Baby A has Down Syndrome and some currently unexplained seizures.
He is in a beautiful city in the far west of his country, in a small orphanage with other young babies and toddlers with special needs.
The first child we committed to was complicated from the beginning. We weren’t sure where he was, when he was found he was the wrong child, when he was found again he had a family coming. It was just tricky all along.
We are thankful that Baby A is not a complicated situation.
We know where he is, for sure. He is listed all the places that he should be to confirm his eligibility for international adoption.
And also, we know that there is no other family in process for him, because he has had a family for quite a long time. (the previous adoptive family that had been planning on bringing him home)
So we are optimistic! And we are excited.
I may or may not be already planning matching outfits for Baby A and Ezra.. 🙂
And Katie is already strategizing what to do if they both poop at the same time. Because, priorities.
We don’t know what the reason was that we had to commit to and lose Baby D before we found Baby A.
I don’t know why I felt so strongly that he was my son, when obviously he wasn’t.
Honestly that messes with you and makes you question your gut instincts.
Maybe we will learn of a reason some day.
But for now, we believe that Baby A has been presented to us for a reason. And that that reason is so that we can bring him home to his family.
I may have a hard time trusting my gut, and I think God probably knows this.
Literally the next morning after learning about Baby A the Part 1 of our Citizenship Papers (which is basically our golden ticket) unexpectedly showed up in our mail box.
6 weeks before it should have been looked at.
2 months before the earliest possible time we were told that we would have it.
I can doubt my gut, but its really hard to argue with something like that.
We are still planning on submitting at the end of September, possibly the beginning of October, which would have us holding little Baby A hopefully in November! Its getting to be crunch time!
We still have about $10,000 to go to bring this little guy home. Possibly a little more as some fees ended up being a little higher that we expected, but that’s a story for another day.
We have been so blessed by all the support we have received so far and we trust that God will continue to provide the resources needed so that Baby A will soon spend his very last night as an orphan and his first as a beloved son.
Just how it was always supposed to be.